Two...

Exams tomorrow...hardest two together... haven't started one yet..

I won Pen it black, again =P.

And after that, let the killing begins. =).

Stats exam ...

... in less than 11 hours.

Lol.

Crap.

20 and a half hour day and Metal Mantra

I am so tired. Woke up at 4 am and it's 12.30 am now. Had a 20 and a half hour day. Am quite suprised I haven't seen talking bunnies yet, although a funny thing happened today while I was having lunch with G. I SWEAR I heared someone say Salam to her and she said Salam back. So I turn my head to look who it is, see no one, ask her about it, and she tells me that no one spoke to her but me ... -_-

Handed in two assignments today. An application for a cake shop database and a pattern searcher. I worked so hard on the application to get it working perfectly since the lecturer informed us that she will spend seven minutes testing it. In the end she spent less than two mins going through it -_-. That was so frustrating! I seriously wanna sell the application, it breaks my heart for it to lie in my computer totally useless after all the blood and sweat i put into it =(

The pattern searcher was a disaster lol. Me and an assignment partner split the workload between us. I finished my part and it was working perfeclty. Unfortunatly, my partner's part of the assignment wasn't working so well. So we spent about 7 and a half hours working on fixing it. 7amdullah we managed to. My fingers hurt from all the typing I have been doing today ... I honestly think I typed tens of thousand of lines of codes while fixing the programmes xD

All the while I was working on the pattern searcher Tom kept coming over to me and asking me to give him ideas on the Unreal Tournament map he is building ....

*cries*

Oh I was so jelous! He and G got to create Unreal Tournament Characters (G's one is Rock Lee from Naruto, and Tom's is Ant man ... just Ant man lol) and also their own Unreal Tournament map. Why can't I do something awesome like that =( I gave Tom alot of ideas that he kept incorperating into his map and by the time I left uni at 10.45 pm it was look pretty darn neat! I think he's still there working on it (Tom is a perfectionist)

I drew something new in the past couple of days. I just got this image of a guy sitting and listening to music like Tool's and experiencing spirtuality through it, like a mantra. Hence I deemed it Metal Mantra. I adore this piece. I believe it is my favourite. I'll print it out sometime after I am done with exams and hang it somewhere for me to admire.

Right then ... it's 12.50 am and I am gonna log onto WoW now for a bit coz I have been looking forward to playing ALL DAY! =P

Night night! *waves*

A cure for homesickness

Mini warning...the following is just a big load my lamentations. So yeah, stop reading if you don't wanna listen to the woes of some random girl.

I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me.

However, I have a really stong inkling though that all this buzzing and static that has been going on and off in my head over the past month is due to ... homesickness.

Well according to wikipedia the symptoms of homesickness "...may be emotional, cognitive, or physical. In extreme cases, physical health problems accompany the hallmark symptom of homesickness, which is preoccupying thoughts of home. Most people describe homesickness as a want or longing to be back home, continuously missing their parents, spouse, relatives, friends, mates and aspects of their familiar environments. People may describe their feelings as a deep sadnesss, depressionn, frustration, anger, or hopelessness."

Homesickness...I've never felt that before. Sure I did miss my family, home and Oman when I first came here. But I didn't cry in the airport when I said goodbye to them, I didn't even shed a tear when my Father gave me the last hug goodbye in the car before he left me here the first time (he came with me to make sure I settle down). I just got out of the car, waved goodbye one last time and went to my lecture. I've had many occasions throught my life where I lived away from my family or home for periods of time, so am pretty much used to this whole situation.

Despite all this, I seriously think am suffering from homesickness. Like a major bout of it. It has been a year and 18 days since the last time I've been home or seen my family, and it's really starting to take it's toll on me =\ I was watching a documentary yesterday about Balqees the Queen of Sheba and at one point they passed through Oman and I freaking burst into tears!! I was rather suprised at myself.

I've become so scatterbrained as well lately. I'm just all over the place lol. I lost my Student ID card in the first week (for goodness sake!). I'm late for all my apointments. I don't reply to text messages on my phone. I have managed to irritate three people today and burn my hand in a moment of absent mindedness on the oven ^_^

I don't feel motivated to study either. I just simply don't want to. This is really weird, coz I genuinely adore education and learning new stuff. All I really feel like doing these days is to either read my novels or listen to music.

The hardest thing about this whole situation is that I can't really explain it to anyone. I can't exaclty make someone understand what I mean when I go: "I can't study because of static in my mind". The usual reaction is either a head shake, a couple of rolling eyeballs, and talk about me having to take my head out of the clouds or some lecture close to the same meaning.

Lol ... I feel really helpless right now. This is so over my head, and I dont know how to heal the situation. A cure for homesickness, something to stop the buzzing and static. I'd so LOVE that right now.

On a lighter note, I grabbed this shot of me before heading out with some friends for dinner. I don't usually wear heals. Terrible balance due to flat feet. But I decided to dress up a bit and I liked what I saw.