Pets ... =(

I miss my pets lol. Like really really reaaaaaaaaally miss them.

I miss watching the Goldfishes at night while I sit in my room on the laptop or reading a book. I would look up and stare at the tank, watching Dagon and the rest of the gang swim around. There's something really relaxing about just watching them swim around.



I miss coming home from work and checking on Kami the tortoise, who currently lives in a big tub, filled with sand and plants and even a little cave for her to sleep in, out on the balcony due to her still being a baby and cats my attack her and stuff. I can look out unto the blacony from bedroom's window, and see her tub. Watching her eat her Prickly Pear Cactus or Aloe Vera was adorable as well =P



I miss feeding the Oscars and Snake Eels. Damn they were amazing to watch at feeding time. The know when feeding time is because I knock on the glass a few times before opening the of their tank. They would get so incredibly excited, coming to the top of the tank and almost jumping out of the water. When I feed them meat or chicken, I would drop the food piece by piece and watch how fast they attack their food. It really is awesome to watch lol. I espically miss Charlie the Albino Oscar. She was the bravest out of them all, always swiming curiosly up to my hand to investigate lol.



I miss the baby turtles, Sasha and Speedy. I espically miss Sasha, she is such a spoilt little princess! She always walks up to your hand when you put it in the tank, and she let us pet her head gently as she sat still. She would also follow me around when I put her on my bedroom's floor in order for her to get some exercise, crawling onto my foot or just staring up at me with that funny crooked look lol.



I miss the puppies =( I only got to see them a couple of times before I came to NZ, but oh do I miss them xD They would get so excited when they see us approach them and it brought joy to my heart to see them in that way. I bought so many treats and toys for them before I came to NZ.

A cure for homesickness

Mini warning...the following is just a big load my lamentations. So yeah, stop reading if you don't wanna listen to the woes of some random girl.

I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me.

However, I have a really stong inkling though that all this buzzing and static that has been going on and off in my head over the past month is due to ... homesickness.

Well according to wikipedia the symptoms of homesickness "...may be emotional, cognitive, or physical. In extreme cases, physical health problems accompany the hallmark symptom of homesickness, which is preoccupying thoughts of home. Most people describe homesickness as a want or longing to be back home, continuously missing their parents, spouse, relatives, friends, mates and aspects of their familiar environments. People may describe their feelings as a deep sadnesss, depressionn, frustration, anger, or hopelessness."

Homesickness...I've never felt that before. Sure I did miss my family, home and Oman when I first came here. But I didn't cry in the airport when I said goodbye to them, I didn't even shed a tear when my Father gave me the last hug goodbye in the car before he left me here the first time (he came with me to make sure I settle down). I just got out of the car, waved goodbye one last time and went to my lecture. I've had many occasions throught my life where I lived away from my family or home for periods of time, so am pretty much used to this whole situation.

Despite all this, I seriously think am suffering from homesickness. Like a major bout of it. It has been a year and 18 days since the last time I've been home or seen my family, and it's really starting to take it's toll on me =\ I was watching a documentary yesterday about Balqees the Queen of Sheba and at one point they passed through Oman and I freaking burst into tears!! I was rather suprised at myself.

I've become so scatterbrained as well lately. I'm just all over the place lol. I lost my Student ID card in the first week (for goodness sake!). I'm late for all my apointments. I don't reply to text messages on my phone. I have managed to irritate three people today and burn my hand in a moment of absent mindedness on the oven ^_^

I don't feel motivated to study either. I just simply don't want to. This is really weird, coz I genuinely adore education and learning new stuff. All I really feel like doing these days is to either read my novels or listen to music.

The hardest thing about this whole situation is that I can't really explain it to anyone. I can't exaclty make someone understand what I mean when I go: "I can't study because of static in my mind". The usual reaction is either a head shake, a couple of rolling eyeballs, and talk about me having to take my head out of the clouds or some lecture close to the same meaning.

Lol ... I feel really helpless right now. This is so over my head, and I dont know how to heal the situation. A cure for homesickness, something to stop the buzzing and static. I'd so LOVE that right now.

On a lighter note, I grabbed this shot of me before heading out with some friends for dinner. I don't usually wear heals. Terrible balance due to flat feet. But I decided to dress up a bit and I liked what I saw.